but what i am learning is that regardless of ever understanding or knowing the answer to the "why's," the duly important process is to stay engaged and to stay true to one's Heart of hearts (kardía) in our journey. kardia will guide us to what's really important; there God dwells.
i believe that one day - likely not in this lifetime - we will come to know the why's. and when we finally arrive at that point where our unknowns become known....it won't even matter. so why do you think it matters so much now?